I feel like a ship’s captain after months of anticipation, finally released from land and riding over the rolling waves on a new adventure.
My NaNoWriMo novel is under way. I’m about 5,000 words in. I feel like I’m on a roll. It’s clicking. Things are happening. My characters are doing stuff and it seems to make sense.
I am trying to fend off the negative thoughts, like, “This sucks!” and “You’re kidding, right?” as much as I can. I just block it out and focus on the words. The words, I tell you!!
It’s fun. I’m having fun. I’d forgotten what it’s like to delve in and let go. It’s amazing. It is an adventure. That’s what I love about writing, you know? Like when you are writing a scene and you know where you want it to go and then all of a sudden a thought pops up and you feel like, “YES!, That’s exactly it!!” Or when you are writing dialogue and the words you are writing suddenly don’t feel like your own. Where are they coming from? It’s like the characters are taking over. You are merely a scribe, observing them and jotting down what happens. I’m like frickin’ Dian Fossey over here! (Hopefully my characters won’t turn on me unexpectedly.)
Anyway, it’s good and I feel like I am burning up my hard drive. We’ll see how long I can sustain the good vibes, especially when the darkness comes and I’m stuck somewhere “in the middle” and everything goes flat!
Author’s Note: As I reread this post, I realize that this could be used someday as evidence to show how crazy I am, how detached from reality I am and when it actually started. Please note that I realize the brain works in mysterious ways and that my characters aren’t actually speaking through me. It is all fiction. I know that. Really. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I left my protagonist at dinner with his dad, step-mom, and a cute blonde girl and her family!